Saturday, February 11, 2012
What a ride!
Infertility is definitely an emotional roller coaster ride. I remember when I had my surgery in November the doctor said you should be pregnant in 3 months. Sitting there with Ike and counting down that we could have a baby in 2012. I thought by February I would have had 3 full cycles. I've had one, and it was Provera induced. So Thursday we went in to see what is going on. I thought we would go and he would prescribe ovulation meds and we would move right along. Unfortunately that was not what happened. He found a cyst in one of my ovaries that is fairly large. Fabulous! Now we are waiting to see if it goes away on it's own. He seems to believe it will. The thing is we can't start meds to help me ovulate till it is gone. I was SAD and ANGRY. Realizing the chances of having a baby this year are no longer a reality. April will make 3 years we have been trying to get pregnant. It is very hard to understand. Thursday was awful. I felt like if I could just move on I could be better, but there is no moving on. I know that the visit was not terrible like I orginally felt. I know that ovulation meds are still an option, and that really is a blessing. I am thankful that I have a relationship with the Lord and I know He has perfect timing. We just have to stay focused on that and continue to pray for His will.