Monday, April 30, 2012

In His time

I debated writing about this, this month, but I think need to.  Someone told me a long time ago to keep a prayer journal so that I can look back at it months or even years later and see how the Lord has answered my prayers because we often forget after they are answered.  All through high school and college I was great at writing these things down.  I have tons of what I call "regular" journals and prayer journals.  I remember right before getting married boxing up my stuff, and reading some of these.  I was amazed at how faithful God had been to my prayers.  The road to these prayers being answered had not all been easy, but He had far exceeded anything I could have imagined.  Some of those prayers I'm still praying today, and I know in His time He will answer those as well.  My point is I wanted to document my feelings to date so that I can look back at this with a smile when the Lord answers...I responded to a friends email and I thought it best said where I am.  I'm copying it below...
Thanks for your email. I totally understand no one knows what to say, and it seems to be an elephant in the room with all of our friends and we hate that. We could not be MORE EXCITED for all of you! Ike and I are very thankful for you guys as well, and we really do take comfort in knowing that so many people are praying for us. We KNOW that the Lord loves us and only has good and perfect plans for us and that is also very reassuring. With all that being said it does take its toll.  I often say my number one defense mechanism is anger. Sad is too hard. So lately I have noticed that I have began being more angry...I'm mad at myself for feeling like I do and I've been mad at God for making me wait. It hasn't helped one single thing for me to feel like this. So I'm moving past it (with His help). I am blessed and the Lord has ALWAYS been faithful to me, and I will not allow the devil to let me doubt Him now. Thank you for being there for us. We love you guys!

 Love, Brandy

3 comments:

Lauren and Nick Miller said...

Hey Brandy,
I will definitely be praying for yall. I love your honesty. It IS hard, no matter what you know & believe.

Katie and Monroe Campbell said...

Love this post! Thanks for being so honest. I feel the same way about anger, and I feel so guilty for being angry. I know the Lord has a bigger and better plan. Praying for you!

The Jones Family said...

I love you.